Im in a tough situation with the father of my kids who is an addict , he uses crystal meth. We been together 7 years. Ive lost myself trying to help him. I haven't seen him since nov 20th 15. He has cheated , found out he was using at motels , has gotten his 1st bm pregnant while I was pregnant with our 2nd son. They used together. Now he left me for another girl who uses and I just don't see how he can love her and be with her than me and our kids. It's been a cycle and idk how to fully let go. Most of our relationship he was on the streets , I finally got tired of letting him come on and out and only coming around when he wants to and gave him a choice me and the boys or drugs ,streets and his addict gf. He got up and left and haven't seen him since then. He's currently locked up until next month but he's already asking about me to his FAM which he does only when he's in there , I want to be strong to not let him back in because I know it's best for my FAM but its easier said than done. I always feel depressed with low self esteem because of him being mental and physically abusive . so its hard for me to move on with someone else. How do I completely remove him ? Its hard and I been okay but I'm not fully over it yet.
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